im not dead.

but my hair is big.

Sorry for my absence guys!

im workin my ass off again.

But i'll be posting something w/ actual substance soon!

Dear John

Its been about 10 months or so since John and I officially broke up. if i remember correctly, we were semi-broken up this time last year. his head was telling him to let go but his heart didnt. i was the same way.

So i think I'm finally ready to blog about the whole situation, since a lot of people actually want to know what happened.  Im not gonna put in  all the details, just the basics. I am in no way trying to put his business out there, or gain any sympathy. I simply need to blog this to get it out of my head 100%.

I will say that i am probably 99% of the reason why we broke up, so im not gonna candy coat anything or turn stuff around to make me look like the victim, cuz i brought this upon myself.

I overslept, left work and got a hole in my lip!

O lah that only sounds awesome in the title.

I pretty much woke up at 9am (which is usually when I'm on the way to work) so as I was haulin ass too get cleaned and such I tripped and fell. Like legit face-planted, however that didn't stop me!

I was at work by 935 :)

I normally wouldn't worry about it, but I started training the new opener today!!!

New opener means more off days for me!!!!!

So we opened the bar, and I left. Its not like we're busy during the day and he already knows how to serve, its not like I left him high and dry.

So my friend jeremy and I went to meet Harper up at twisted. Since we were already there I just went ahead and got my lip pierced.

I'd been playin around w/ the idea, but never got it done cuz I'm either poor or not poor, but already spent all my fuckin money. :/

But not this time!

HOLY LIP!!

That is all!

omg is it Thursday yet?

Holy Mother of Christ!

Is it fuckin thursday yet?

I'm so tired of working mornings!!!!

JESUS!

i hate goin to bed early to get up early!

I AM A CREATURE OF THE NIGHT!!!!!!

for no reason should i be going to sleep at midnight and waking up at 8!

o well. hopefully there will be more servers at work soon that can open.

But i have a 3 day weekend this week 

starting Thursday obviously.

Plus my sister and nephew are coming up..Friday i think?

so yay for that!

Also, 

I'm growing my eyebrows back out...yet at the same time thinking about shaving them even thinner.

i liked my brows thick like in the above picture

(my monroe brows)

well mine are arched a little higher, but im also pulling mine up lor

but i also like them really thin and halfway there because i can do more with them in theory

hm.... decisions decisions.

also, i had sex w/ a guido.

my life is complete.

around and around and around we go.

So I'm back on Gal Secrets. 

the only reason ppl try to bring me down is cuz im above them 

With Love,

Kiara Nicole.

Burts Bees Skin Care

[this is not an advert. I was not sponsored or endorsed by Burts Bees in any way. All of these products were bought with my own money]

Onto a happier subject!

So i bought a bunch of new skincare!

My skin used to be TERRIBLE!

i had acne everywhere and after the zit would go away I'd be left with these FUGLY marks of darker pigmentation. I guess i'm lucky i don't have a crater face though.

I tried EVERYTHING to get my skin to calm down!

• Washing my face with only Clean and Clear, which just dried my skin out and made my acne worse.
• Only Neutrogena products same results as above
• Only Ivory soap.
• "Black skin care" that shits a joke!
• Noxzema
• Exfoliating daily

The last two worked! with a steady and basic regimine of Noxzema twice a day and exfoliating with St. Ives apricot scrub 4 times a week, my skin cleared up. 

Its still not 100% but WAY better than it was.

However, I HATE that the good noxzema comes in a tub. Its REALLY unhygienic; i mean do you know whats on your hands???

So after I finished off my last tub of  Noxzy i decided to try something new for my skin.

I went with:

Ive heard really good things about their skincare and ive been using their lip balms for a while so i figured they were worth trying.

so i basically redid my entire skincare system:

I got the Daily Radiance Facial Cleanser w/ Royal Jelly  for  my everyday  cleansing; its not heavy, smells good and takes off a majority of my makeup!

 AND its 99% natural!

For my exfoliation needs i got the Peach and Willowbark Deep Pore Scrub.

it leaves my face feelin like a babys ass! and its 100% natural!

Now im not a huge fan of toner since it tends to dry my skin out, but sometimes when the weathers changing my face gets super oily and i HAVE to tone, so i picked up the

Natural Acne Solutions Clarifying Toner.

99.5% natural 

and one of the best toners i have EVER used.

it doesnt leave my face feeling tight or smelling all...chemmically like most other acne products.

the last thing i got was some makeup remover/cleansing towelettes because i am notorious for passing out in my bed (or some random strangers..but more on that later) after a night of drinking.

and i HATE waking up with last nights mascara crusting my eyelids together and my false eyelash on some guys chest..(yeah thats a weird situation) so i actually bought two of these and i keep one in my bag and one on my desk by my bed.

So now i have no excuse to fall asleep with makeup on!

and they actually work really well! one towelette removes my full face of makeup!

and 99.1% natural too!!!

the only thing i didnt change was my moisturizer because i still have a 3/4 full bottle of Aveeno Positively Radiant moisturizer w/ spf. 

Good stuff as well.

But once im out of it, im most def gonna go back and get some burts bees day cream and night cream.

im thinkin the  Radiance day cream w/ spf 15 for my everyday and the Beeswax moisturizing night cream for night.

GOD I LOVE SKINCARE!!!!!

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

So my freakin makeup bag w/ my everyday makeup was lost/stolen at work.

-____-

Yeah. There was at the very least $200 worth of stuff in that bag.

So here's the story:

I had my bag at work and I had to leave to get to another appointment. I was gonna touch up my eyeliner in the car, when I realised that my bag wasn't in my purse. I didn't have time to go back and grab it, so I just shrugged it off and said it would be there when I opened in the morning. (I had an extra eyeliner in the bottom of my bag)

Well, when I showed up the next morning around 9am I checked all the places where it could have been and didn't see it. I double checked, still no bag. I asked my manager if he had seen it, no luck. I asked the girls in the office, STILL nothing.

UGH!!!

There goes my $20 foundation brush, my NARS eyeshadow, my primer, at LEAST $50 more in face brushes. A limited edition eyeshadow pallet that I probably will never be able to find again...UGH!!!!!!

Plus now I have to go back to F21 and get a new makeup bag.

Fuck my fuckin life.

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fuuuuu

so im apartment-sitting for my grandma while shes at work. 

some guy is supposedly to come and inspect the apartment and she didnt want to take a day off.

So im sitting here blogging in real- time talking to Mali about nonsense lol.

Also im out of cigarettes pretty much.

I have 2 and a clove.

I COULD walk to the store down the street like 10 mins away...

BUT i dont have a key to her house lol

and the only locks a deadbolt

-_-

so i guess i have to make these 3 last till about 1550 or 1600 (330 or 4pm [military time])

i think i may hang out with jeremy later today. but who knows.

and i leave you w/ a terrible web cam picture.

i buyed moar stuffs

Hola!

So I've come to the conclusion that i am a compulsive shopper.

But whatever~

I BUYED NEW LENSES!!

Yeah!

i took my ole happy ass over to honeycolor

and bought two pair of Bambis:

got the grey

and

the chocolates!

So now i have three of the four colors!!!

I probably wont get the almond lens to be honest...theyre too...natural for me.

PLUS!!!!

THEY WERE ON SALE!

original price: $23.90

Sale price: $19.12

PLUS i had a coupon for an additional $3.82 off my order

 SO EXCITED FOR THE MAIL FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS 

and when i get all my stuff

im do my nails, and put in my lens and put on my skull dress and cause problems!

and the problems that i cause

YEAH!!!!

let the nonsense continue

HALLELUJAH ITS MY WEEKEND!

you have NO idea how happy I am to not have to get up at 7:30am!!

No double fisting 24 oz. Rudbulls!

No sitting at that horribly uncomfortable hostess stand

No more serving assholes who tip $1 on a $45 tab

So basically i worked like 48 hours this week..on maybe...4 hours sleep each night. i worked two doubles and a shift and a half, and then one regular shift. Its just really hard on me considering i would get home at 1 or 2 and get to bed half an hour to 45 minutes later (i have to clean up the kitchen and shower and such) and then get up at 7:30 to be at work at 9:30

just...

(this is totally a gif filled post obviously)

so anyway!

So. Im legit IN LOVE with 

My Little Ponies: Friendship is Magic

FUCKIN FLUTTERSHY

but RARITY  

is my bitch!

anyway~

I also made some good money  (since i worked all week) so i went on a shopping spree!

i bought a dress and a belt from Sara:

AND

i got a bunch of stuff from ebay!

500 Sharp Ending Stiletto Acrylic False Nail Tips Clear 

1000x Clear Glitter Star Rhinestones Acrylic Nail Art 

1000 Black Star Nail Art Decorations Rhinestones Decals

1200 Round Rhinestones Gems 12 Color Nail Art 2mm Wheel 

2x Nail Art Rhinestones Gems Picking Tools Pencil Pen

All for $10.50

ITS GONNA BE LIKE CHRISTMAS!

also, ive been thinking of trying some of those magic tit pills!

only $12 so not a huge loss if they dont work right?

"For naturally beautiful breasts without the risk or cost of surgery."

but I think thats about all really. so.....yes.

hopefully in 2 weeks my nails will be awesome.

and i shall be happy. and i will wear my skull dress everywhere.

That is all.

all work and no play

WOE IS ME!

not really.

well kinda.

I've legit been at work all fuckin day the past 2 weeks.

YAY money

BOO on double shifts

yeah. also got no motivation to blog.

meh.

i'll return when i do something beside work,drink, and watch nip/tuck.

Gal Secrets = Massive LOLS

So I was on Gal_Secrets this week!

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100 th post 100 followers

I VE GOT 100 FREAKIN FOLLOWERS!!!

THIS IS MY 100TH POST

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!

YAY ME!

ok..

well anyway, I'll start getting stuffs

so i can have a giveaway soon!

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[Sponsored Post] YANQINA Max Volume Waterproof Mascara

kkcenterhk has been nice enough to sponsor me  a tube  of YANQINA Max Volume Precise Waterproof Macsara.

Everybody knows I LOVE mascara.

Shipping took about 10 days and it came in a normal brown mailer.










heres  what the website claims:

The soft fibres that were formed will easily slide off.

The liquid-like application DOES NOT extra work to separate lashes before mascara dries.

Your own lashes WILL NOT dry in a clump.

“Max Volume Precise Water Proof Mascara” extra length was noticeable.

Lasts all day without any flaking, smudging, smearing or streaking and water-resistant.

Even water-resistant, yet easy to remove 

So does it work? Lets see~

My normal short lashes

BIG BRUSH IS BIG
(my grandmas hand!)

 As you saw the brush is Huge (which i personally like) the formula is a little thin, but DEAR GOD!!!

ONE COAT!

After ONE coat my lashes were much more visible and thicker looking. After my usual 156387  coats my lashes were very visable and Big!

BIG HAIR AND BIG LASHES!!!

millions of coats

The only complaint that i have is that it wasnt as easy to remove as it claimed. It took me 3 or 4 passes with the makeup remover to get it all off.

BUT i did fall asleep with it on a few times and my lashes were still big dark and really SOFT the next day!

it is also quite smudge-proof and waterproof  which is great this time of year since all it does here now is rain and be gloomy.

So all in all Id give YANQINA Max Volume Mascara a 4/5.taking off one point for it being hard to remove.

But all-in all I really do like this mascara!!!

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The Rules of The Club

So working in a bar means i get to deal with a whole lotta nonsense. TONS OF IT!

Drunk girls, Drunk guys, Douchbags, Guidos, Vomit, Fights, Spilled drinks, ppl gettin mad over music... just fuckin nonsense.

dayglow! i was there!

(this pic has nothing to do w/ this post lol)

But all in all i love my job.

HOWEVER there are a few rules that people should follow when in a club: