He finally gave me a reason as to why he stopped talking to me:
"Nothin about you, I'm sorry that this happened cuz I realized I couldn't deal with a relationship. I have to work on myself and get stable. I'm coming back to nothing and I have to focus on myself. I didn't mean to be cold but I would rather end it then to mislead you. I think you are a good person and that's why I ended it like this. I would have really been cold to keep the relationship going knowing I couldn't handle a relationship. I hope you can understand. I never intended to hurt you. I'm sorry."
I'm pretty sure thats the most cliche reason ever, but I'd rather have a cliche reason than no reason at all.
I really just dont understand why guys think that a girl would rather just stop hearing from them vs, getting some type of explanation.
For myself personally, I would much rather have an explanation just so that I can know what was on your mind so that I dont have to sit around wondering what the fuck has gone on to suddenly make me go from the most awesome person in your book to something that just gets disregarded one day like it was nothing.
the only time i will ever accept a full and abrupt stop in all communication between myself and a male is if I wasnt really feelin you in the first place and if i felt that you were simply beating a dead horse trying to talk to me.
and on another note-- If you feel like you cant handle a relationship and didnt want to "string me along" why would you get into a relationship to start?
Its one thing to be in some type of relationship limbo where youre pretty sure youre better off ending it, but something is telling you to try just a little bit more like when John and I were going through this:
i loved you yes
i'm not going to say present cause i'm not gonna drag you along not knowing the future
all i can tell you to do is suck it up, you can do better than me and you can't say no unless you try
Youre right John. I can, and I will.